A pioneering space traveler has publicly detailed her struggle with mental health after facing a massive wave of online abuse in the aftermath of a pioneering women-only spaceflight.
The 34-year-old activist – recognized as a scientist and civil rights advocate – was part of the short-duration mission in April, which also carried well-known figures.
The high-profile flight was heavily criticized by some, who cited its expense and ecological impact.
Reflecting on the situation, the astronaut, who made history as the pioneer for her community, stated the intense backlash eclipsed her moment under an torrent of sexist abuse.
“I told her my depression might last for years,” the astronaut shared in a social media post, describing a phone call from a mission companion in the period after the landing.
She portrayed the news reports and online discourse as an “onslaught no human brain has evolved to endure”.
“I did not leave Texas for a week, unable to get out of bed,” she revealed. “Weeks after, I was forced to terminate a call, my voice choked by tears.”
The researcher, who has dedicated her work to female health science and operated research during the flight, said everything she had worked for – including her lab work and astronaut training to the symbolic importance of her heritage – was drowned out under the avalanche of sexist vitriol.
She is best known for her tireless campaigning fighting for justice for victims of sexual violence.
Her own aspiration for spaceflight was paused after surviving a rape during her time as a student, leading to a protracted legal battle.
Months following achieving her goal, she noted the “fog of grief has started to lift”, and she expressed gratitude the well-wishers whose messages of encouragement were her lifeline. “Your support rescued me,” she said.
She concluded that despite the negativity, important benefits had resulted from the experience, including spotlight on her scientific work and new advocacy opportunities.
The self-operating spacecraft departed its launch site in April, carrying the all-female team on a 11-minute journey that crossed the edge of space.
The diverse crew also comprised experts in different industries.
The company behind the mission is a private space firm launched by a Amazon founder.
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